Can you help me towards my Nullfication for a body that feels like Me?

Hi there! I'm Dan, and I'm working towards a life-changing goal: undergoing my nullification surgery to help me create a body that aligns with my self-image and the way I experience the world. Every little bit of support you can possibly offer gets me closer to that goal. Your help means the world to me!

If you are kind enough to give a donation, and leave your email or socials in the 'note' section when sending it, I'll drop you a little thank you with a link to a secret page where I'll post all the updates I can possibly capture in the run up to and the recovery after my surgery. Thanks ^_^

Wait, what's nullification?

Nullification is a gender-affirming surgery that results in a smooth, non-binary bodyform. Think Ken doll (without the abs), but make it me!

Does this mean you're trans?

Not really! I've just never felt like my “maleness” was tied to my genitals. They've always felt separate from my identity, and for a host of reasons (more on that in a sec), I've decided it's time to let them go. I'll still be a cis male, but without those extra bits I don't want or need

Why nullification?

Complex things rarely have one single cause, right? My decision is rooted in a few main areas:

1. Ownership of My Body

Living with a long-term health condition since my teens has meant my body hasn't always felt like my own. It's frustrating when your body doesn't function the way you want or feel the way you know it should.

For me, this includes my “equipment,” which has never felt like a functional or pleasurable part of my life.

Indeed very much the opposite. My junk has been a source of physical discomfort, mental anxiety and feelings of 'that's not quite right' for the majority of my adult life.

Other aspects of my body have similarly never felt quite right to me - and I've taken conscious control of those with my tattoos and body modifications. They're a method of making something beautiful and mine out of the genetic inheritence I received.

Consciously scupting my body to match how I feel on the inside has bought me such joy and self confidence. I would not be the person that I am today if I were still inhabiting a shell that was not my own. This surgery feels like the way to complete that final piece of the puzzle that still doesn't match.

2. Aesthetics and Attraction

I've always been drawn to non-binary bodyforms — they've captivated me since I was young. To me, the space between traditionally male and female bodyplan is it's own unique and beautiful aesthetic.

I want to look in the mirror and see something that I feel comfortable with, free of bits that very much remind me of many of the negative aspects of my journey so far.

I was always very self conscious of my equipment - having a well-below-average penis size led to a whole load of challenges as I navigated my journey into adulthood, and made it very difficult for me to allow myself to form intimite relationships with people. I was always horrified at the idea that I'd be expected to top, and these feelings of inadequacy led to me finding myself in a very poor place from a mental health perspective.

Add to this that I'm not even a natural top anyway (I really, really hate how it feels!), and you can only imagine the pressure I put myself under to avoid any sort of intimicy. It took me an awful long time to let go of that anxiety, and to embrace the fact that as a confident bottom I can achieve all the fulfilment and physical connection I denied myself trying to fit myself into the unrealistic ideals I was trying to hold myself to.

In short, my genitals are just not involved in my sexuality in any way. They actively turn me off, are very much in the way.

This surgery will help me embody the form I've always felt connected and drawn to, and will give me a clean break. A chance to take a deep breath and actually, really, finally relax into myself.

3. Timing

With my health condition, timing is critical. As I approach 40, the risks associated with this surgery increase. If I don't act soon, I fear failing to take this oppurtunity will become one of my greatest regrets.

I've spent years saying “maybe next year,” but my window of opportunity won't last forever. Now's the time to make this happen!

4. The other stuff

There are also several other factors driving my decision, which are far, far too longwinded to get into here! If you see me out and about, let's get a drink and I'll tell you all about them ^_^

What's the plan?

I've been saving hard and have already put away nearly £10,000 towards my ultimate goal of £20,000+. My aim is to book with the Mexico Transgender Center in late 2025 once I've got the majority of my funds together.

Here's a breakdown of the estimated costs:

Why I Need Your Help

As the only breadwinner for my partner and me, I'm already saving as much as I can without risking our financial stability. That's why I'm asking to see if anyone can help me out and support me on this journey.

If you believe in body autonomy, self-expression, and the power of living authentically, I'd be honored if you'd consider contributing whatever you can. Whether it's £5 or simply sharing my story, every bit counts.

Thank you for helping me take this next step in my journey toward a body that truly feels like me. ❤️

How do I help?

There are many ways you can help me out - by donating towards my fund, or just to reach out and share your support! It's all really appreciated.

Thank you so very much :)
Dan